For almost two decades Tsepiso Tshivhase had gone through life keeping an "enormous", tragic secret from his family. The 27-year-old
For years, Tsepiso's family attempted to conceal the truth, admittedly, he said, in an effort to protect him from the horrors of gender-based violence (GBV), which had for years plagued his home.
What they didn't know, Tsepiso said, was that he found his mother's charred body and alerted his grandmother to the smoke coming from his parents' bedroom.
"When I found the bag with my mother's belongings, every day after school I'd read a bit of it. I wanted to understand what she was like."
Just a few years after his parents' death, he found a bag in his grandfather's bedroom containing letters and other personal documents that belonged to his mother. He also found the police report that highlighted the circumstances surrounding his parents' death.
"I was always a curious child; I read everything I got my hands on. When I found the bag with my mother's belongings, every day after school I'd read a bit of it. I wanted to understand what she was like. That's how I found the police report," he said.
Spotlight on GBV
When first-year UCT student Uyinene Mrwetyana was killed in
Fast forward just a few months and Tsepiso will receive his degree in an unconventional setting. Sadly, for him and hundreds of other graduands, UCT has suspended its autumn graduation because of the COVID-19 pandemic.
"It's sad that we won't get hooded, and it's sad that I had to cancel the flight ticket for my 82-year-old grandfather who is my only surviving [parental] figure. But this suspension is necessary - we can't endanger the lives of students in our community and their families," he said.
Tsepiso is one of UCT's inspirational graduates for this graduation season.
Life at Wits
After matriculating in 2010, Tsepiso left his hometown in Venda, Limpopo, to study mechanical engineering at the
"For the first time I felt like an orphan. It was a lonely and depressing time in my life. Moving from a rural area to an urban area and having to mix with kids from privileged backgrounds was a nightmare. We had nothing in common," he said.
In 2013, because of his results, he was academically excluded and returned home. He spent most of his days assisting with outreach programmes at his church. But things took a positive turn when his good friend Hulisani Tseisi gave him a call one afternoon in 2014.
"For the first time I felt like an orphan. It was a lonely and depressing time in my life."
"He asked me how things were going at Wits and I told him that I was back home. He thought I was joking," he said.
"He was determined for me to get into UCT and I regained my confidence that I could make my academic comeback," Tsepiso said.
"When UCT accepted me, he [
Arriving at UCT
Settling in at UCT was a mighty task. Once he was accepted, he opted to enrol in the faculty's Academic Support Programme for Engineering in
"I was so scared of failing again and thought that I would be more capable of a lesser academic load," he said.
The demands that came with his degree were immense, and the "huge" secret he had been keeping from his grandparents, aunts and uncles for years often weighed him down. That wasn't all. Tsepiso said it bothered him "a lot" that his fellow students were younger than him, and he felt like "a lesser person" asking them for help.
"When I started making friends who truly cared for me, things started to change."
All this changed when he established a proper support structure on campus after he joined UCT's Student Christian Fellowship society and developed a lasting friendship with his classmate,
"When I started making friends who truly cared for me, things started to change," he said.
"It no longer bothered me that I was asking someone younger for assistance. I realised that there was absolutely nothing wrong with that."
Reaching "rock bottom"
Talking to his family about the circumstances surrounding his mother's death was always on his mind but felt impossible to do - until 2018 when he sat his aunt down and told her what he had known for half his life.
"She cried. She said they wanted to protect me and because I was doing so well in school, they thought that telling me the truth would make me regress. I understood," he said.
"My family gave me a happy childhood and I didn't ever feel like I was lacking anything, and I didn't feel like an orphan at all."
Tsepiso said the load seemed somewhat less after the conversation with his aunt. However, after Uyinene's murder, which followed shortly after his grandmother's death last year, things began to unravel.
"I couldn't attend my grandmother's funeral because I was in the middle of a very important project. That broke my heart. A few weeks later Nene [Uyinene] was killed, and suddenly I was staring the effects of GBV straight in the eye again. I was [at] rock bottom," he said.
Seeking help
Tsepiso said he struggled to cope. He lost his appetite and battled to sleep at night. Popela convinced him that he needed help.
"I felt like I was reliving my childhood and what happened to my mother, and I lost all composure," he said.
With the assistance of UCT Student Wellness, the in-house EBE psychologist and group therapy sessions with his sponsorship programme, things slowly improved.
"I am so grateful to my faculty for their support, especially last year when I went through such a dark time."
He said he began to see things differently and his therapy sessions provided him with the courage to speak about his mother's death.
While he admitted that his academic programme took "a bit of a knock" during this time, once he communicated with his supervisor, Dr
"I am so grateful to my faculty for their support, especially last year when I went through such a dark time. They could easily have allowed me to drop out, but they didn't, they believed in me, and here I am - a graduate," Tsepiso said.
"I am excited for what lies ahead. I believe it will be nothing but good."
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